I can't WILL myself to be happy.. and lately, i don't want too. I spend a majority of the year walking around wiith a smile making sure everyone else is fine... but lately I just want to curl up in a ball underneath my covers and take a long-mental vacation! Being me is EXHAUSTING... maybe it's the weather that has me feeling blue, maybe it's just me.. who knows...
I think a majority of it has to do with my negative self-talk lately. Am I really believing into the lie I can just pass through life unnoticed.. aparently so. There are very few times in a week my attendance is necessary before someone notices I'm not around. Sadly, I've managed to figure out when these are and avoid the rest.
I must admit this sounds silly, but it works.
no need to go places if whether or not I go no one cares.
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