I wrote the best role play on grief counseling my professor has ever seen last semester (his words, not mine), but when it comes to having the words to say, even to myself, when it really matters they all feel so empty. Sometimes the only thing we can do is simply BE. To sit in silence with nothing but our heart pounding, eyes flooded with tears and simply BE- because it takes every fiber of our being to take the next breath. I can't seem to get it together from one extreme to the next. I go from bottled up 'I'm perfectly fine' to a pile of soaking wet from tears.. off an on all day. I miss you corey... you are always and forever close to my heart. Today was the hardest any day can possibly get. It was so painful to see you lifeless. You looked so peaceful.... but I know you are not sleeping. I know your soul has passed from this earth, leaving behind your flesh... And my heart weeps. I can't believe you're gone. Like the preacher said today... This wasn't God's plan. It wasn't suppose to end like this.
Always and forever close to my heart. <3
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